Hello?

2010-09-29T20:52:00.001+08:00

i want you. only you. sian. this sucks.

Awake, still.

2010-09-17T02:43:00.002+08:00

Can't sleep. Tossing on my bed. Gahhh. Been having dreams these few nights. Guess my brain needs a real good rest but i just couldn't do so. I've been quite busy with studies and other stuff. Sleeping pattern is in a BIG mess. :( oh, life is just like that. every single thing in life, that is. mmmm...

I really think everyone should learn about this. Trust isn't something we should give out unconditionally, not even by the trail of love. What a seemingly nice appeal may just be fraud. Well, i dunid any copyrights here cuz that's my sentence. but anyway, how often isn't that true? Many of times, we just dont learn our lesson. Bitten once, yet twice ISN'T shy. pathetic.

oh dear, it's 3am. D: Still feeling so wakeful. soon later i'll need sleeping pills lol. okay, i got to lie down n rest my body, mind and soul. gdnight everyone :)

Update.

2010-08-08T00:32:00.002+08:00

I won't be blogging here for now, just taking my head off here a little while. Have a nice day ahead, people! :)

realization.

2010-07-22T20:06:00.010+08:00

it's been a while since i last got so worked up and wretched. read some blog. how i wish that special thing is still the same like what it was, last august - everything was nice and sweet (perfect). just so emotional now. i know there's almost nothing i can do to ease it. i'll just isolate myself from the crowds - sorry my friends.

(Have you guys tasted tears before? it's salty!)

oh well. received a call - she's admitted to the hospital. shall visit her tomorrow after my swim with a friend in the afternoon, at Chinese Swimming Club.

>>>watch this: (cutest albino budgie i've ever seen)

Hope everyone's doing well in your work n stuff!

a big topic.

2010-07-08T23:02:00.005+08:00

Back on blogging for a moment.

2010-06-27T23:43:00.010+08:00

Saw this little study-guide-graph a few days ago. i thought it'd be quite useful though it's quite common sense. lololol i guess i should start restructuring my studying style - revision comes first before doing any homework assigned, AND revise w/e that was taught in school on that day, before i sleep! haha! oh well, i hope it's not too late for me. :D

Here's the little "study-guide-graph" i found on the net.
(Credits to whoever that created this and uploaded to the web.)

Been bored of reading those piles of (stupid) books and i decided to go google on "Budgie". :D Once reared it before but it died by virtue of a stupid reason. It drank the melted wax from my candle. -.- It's been a nice pet. haha! Now, i feel like getting another budgie or maybe a pair. Ahhh! i hope i'm not doing it on impulse. oh well, i'll see how things go before buying it. Anyway, i prefer pale yellow budgies.

Take a look at some of them here:

I hate the moment when i wake up today at around 1 p.m cuz my neck, shoulder, right arm and both left & right shanks are aching ttm. Zzz.

*RANDOM:
Cousin just got married yesterday and i'm (still) happy for her. :)*

Don't really blog cuz:
1. my life isn't interesting enough to be read :/
2. (i think blogging is quite a boring thing to do :X) haha.

Oh well, i shall end here. Good luck and have a good week ahead (tomorrow) everyone! :)

it bothers.

2010-05-16T22:07:00.004+08:00

this has been a bother to me. want to but dont think there may be a chance to. it's 24th of june. a special day i guess but i think i wont get to celebrate it. it doesnt lie with me. i thought going to universal studio would be fun on that day but no plan has been heard from.. guess the day would just pass off like any other day without a notice. sigh. nevermind i think.

sad huh? uh, very...it's only once cuz we can't turn back time...

2010-04-25T13:08:00.000+08:00

sick and tired of everything. take it or leave it then.

Good bye everyone.

2010-04-20T21:48:00.003+08:00

sick and tired of initiation.

kkthnxbye.

2010-04-15T16:18:00.003+08:00

fallaciously irresponsible.

okay.

2010-04-01T23:48:00.001+08:00

2010-03-31T17:14:00.001+08:00

question remains uncertain.

2010-03-29T14:25:00.003+08:00

Calm and patient

as the past.

no squabble.

Inch by inch.

Hallelujah.

all agreed.

very much a duo,

everyone calls.

Yet, time passes.

ordeal came.

ubiquitously stands a demon in mind, partition.

BOOM.

all, everything.

crumbled down.

Keel steady's expired.

well.... it really hurts.

why ):

2010-03-29T14:07:00.002+08:00

why are all the little things done, unseen. why are all the sweetest things said were taken as sarcasm. why does everything from my heart are unfelt, unappreciated, unthought about...all's my heart's fault. all's my mind's fault. why am i still yearning and crying for u.

argh. someone pls wake me up pls. get me out of this mental distress. it's killing me inside out.

i got the LYTMD. Love You Too Much Disorder. Suggest wad could be my remedy. T.T

nice one.

2010-03-29T10:17:00.002+08:00

Once, God has given me something precious, something that may seem to make my life near perfection. My world has been revolving around "it" all the time and it soon became part of my life. well.. stupidly, i destroyed it. and now, everything is "expropriated". it's pretty difficult for me to push forth. i may not know when will "that" be given to me again, i'll just keep my fingers crossed.

sometimes, i really wonder if someone would actually appreciate my sincerity and little nice n sweet things i did. Ponderation for days could still not give me a certain answer... well.. i guess everything has its own degree of mysteriousness..

oh well.. i'm stuck in the middle of the sky, tangled by the vines of life. scolding and motivations should be able to necessitate me to do better...i think?

stress. stress. stress.

*Fingers crossed*

An unappreciated piece.

2010-03-22T22:33:00.006+08:00

since it is not going to be appreciated by the recipient, i thought i would just share this poem with at least some of u guys who are interested and would sacrifice time to read my FIRST poem. (: thanks and pardon for any mistakes for it's my first piece of poem which i really put in a lot of effort in writing it. i took an hour to compose it. yes, i'm a noob in this. but at least i tried.

I shall name it.....

The Battle of Mind.

Gravity's here.

Moon's above.

Reasons.

They exist.

Upon it, pondering.

And, wondering.

Oblivion, door's unlocked.

A push.

Foolishly, thou fell.

Reminiscence indulgence,

supposed.

Yearn.

In progress,

recherché Gem is treasured.

With hone,

machete arrived.

Axe it!

Blades sank in.

Eradication - Mastermind's decision.

A battlefield of mind - ended.

Mind of conscience has come,

to seize.

Flag of regret is raised.

Looking back.

Hopeful,

apologetic,

kneels down.

I surrender.

too bored.

2009-09-11T17:49:00.003+08:00

SIGH! WHY DIDNT I CHECK MY EMAIL ON 8TH SEPT!!!! T.T singtel sent me an email saying that i can make my purchase for iphone 3GS after queuing for it such a long period of time since july. FINALLY! but i read it only today! and e stocks are out AGAIN. zzzz. -.-

i was too bored that i wrote this :

Sun's scorching that yellow land of slopes. One out of the two mini footballs, by tits, is kicked off that gentle yellow hill. Landing on that restless rock accompanied by a dark brown log, a wail is perceived with the ear of the one that kicked the football.

HAHA!

2009-09-07T14:20:00.002+08:00

i'm so stressed for these few days. i don't know why though. the reasons are just too bewildering. lol. i don't know. i guess i'm just going to do whatever that will please myself and get rid of this feeling of melancholy. but then again, i think it's going to take quite a while for me to settle down. i must get it done by end of this september holiday.

the feeling of insecurity may soon smother me when i can't take it anymore... something has to be done.

2009-08-29T11:55:00.001+08:00

I love this song by Celine Dion - To Love You More.

Take me back in the arms I love

Need me like you did before

Touch me once again

And remember when

There was no one that you wanted more

Don't go you know you will break my heart

She won't love you like I will

I'm the one who'll stay

When she walks away

And you know I'll be standing here still

I'll be waiting for you

Here inside my heart

I'm the one who wants to love you more

You will see I can give you

Everything you need

Let me be the one to love you more

See me as if you never knew

Hold me so you can't let go

Just believe in me

I will make you see

All the things that your heart needs to know

I'll be waiting for you

Here inside my heart

I'm the one who wants to love you more

You will see I can give you

Everything you need

Let me be the one to love you more

And some way all the love that we had can be saved

Whatever it takes we'll find a way

I'll be waiting for you

Here inside my heart

I'm the one who wants to love you more

You will see I can give you

Everything you need

Let me be the one to love you more.

((:

2009-08-10T19:50:00.000+08:00

no longer reminisces for bygones may seem to be 'luxuriating' emotionally but it's not at all - deluding. It's only educing dolefulness...or probably melancholy...in me. That sucks when i'm already engulfed in the sea of 'love' now - i'm gratified! i love you, dear! :D

great.

2009-08-08T00:31:00.003+08:00

Sorry for being late just now =/

......................enjoyed a great performance with you today (7th of aug, 7.30pm -9.30pm). (:

Thnx for the Poem! didn't realise my name until Justin mentioned to me ><

....Love you(:

2009-07-31T11:47:00.001+08:00

can no longer online from monday to friday, and sunday, anymore, for laptops and computer will be confiscated due to drastic drop in academic results. gonna be real diligent. - except for the times when laptop is obligatory for group meetings.

wad a way to of motivated.

i miss and love u a lot..

STRESS!!

2009-07-29T20:25:00.002+08:00

Crap! NEVER in my life had i been so emotional! oh man..it felt like im next for A level Chinese Oral Examination..just that this tensed feeling went on and on, doesnt seem to stop. i dont really know what's the reason to it but that feeling just came and stayed in me. Despite how much effort i put to get rid of it, it just stayed still in me. zzz. eventually, i forced myself to cry it all out. it did make me feel slightly better. (:

but....

not until when u called me..haha i felt way better after talkin to u over the phone. sometimes, im thinking abt this - shud i not love u to the core just in any case that u might abandon me. but then again, u always reassure me that u won't and never will. i guess i'm just pondering over something that will never happen... (: i love u a lot a lot a lot...

2009-07-24T23:52:00.002+08:00

whoa! school ended so quickly! hehe! met my cousin, tyl, at dhoby ghaut. First off...we went window shopping at Yamaha Music Store...then Caesars! hahaha! wanted to catch any movie on e list but all aren't that appealing to us and so we went down and visited a weird store which sells 'erotic' stuffs LOL!....

We played pool at Paradize at ard 4pm+ to 5.50pm. one thing abt the pool tables over there, it's slanted -.- the balls could move in the shape of an alphabet 'J' and even backwards. that's how not up to scratch it was but the price ratings are low. haha.

5.50pm to 6.30pm: i accompanied my cousin to a store, City Music, at Peace Centre. i was stoning 'patiently' LOL..then, we walked to plaza singapura n bought lots of lots of junk food for dinner! we bought: sushi, donuts, 2 packets of potato chips, a bottle of plain water n lemon 7-up, and a box of biscuit! we ate them at the side of e street.. oh ya! i remembered that i once BURBED damn loudly that a girl who passed us was like giving the "wad-the-hell" and "yeeeewwwwkkk" face! so embarrassed! ><

At ard 7.30pm, we walked to Orchard Central and then a 30minutes walk from Orchard Central to Pool Fusion near National Library...we played pool again until 9.50pm..haha..

wad a tiring but satisfying day. (x

what a nice day/way to get rid of all e problems with my best friends today (:

2009-07-18T22:52:00.009+08:00

RINGGGGG! my alarm clock rang - it's 7.30. awwww. im still tired! and i decided to continue sleeping and guess wad. i woke up at 8.20am! and im so so so late for my group meeting which starts at 9am at SMU. Then, out of laziness, i decided to still carry on sleeping till 8.30am HAHAHA! and that's when my best friend called...and we chatted..guess wad did we chat? we were actually chatting how late are we going to be! LMAO! HAHAHA! that's like best friends always late. after i put down e phone at ard 8.50am, my group's meeting planner called and i was like.."oh no? it's gonna be 9am in 10 minutes!" and i didnt pick up her call LOL! and i went to bathe, and reached the bus-stop at ard 9.25am. my best friend called again. hahaha. she told me that my group's time-planner is late LOL and has changed the meeting time to 10.30am and i said oh ok that's good cuz that's the time which im going to reach SMU.

9 - 12minutes later......

the bus came and i hit the corner of e seat when i was about to sit down. wahahahaa. and yea, the bus ride was pretty boring and so i chatted on the phone with my best friend again....

and...i didnt realise it only take 35mins to go from the bus-stop to SMU until today. :X after reaching SMU at 10.10, i took a very 'simple' breakfast at the 'Pick N Bite'...the food...was quite terrible? i guess...but i was hungry HAHA. after that, im like facebook-ing while waiting for those 'Late-Comers', who always like to brag about how punctual are they for the previous meetings LOR! ZZZ. hehehe we slacked during the meeting. :X

it's 1.30pm! some friends joined us and we went pool! wow that's so fun! wahahaha! played with my best friend for like 4 rounds? and she didnt win any of those rounds. LMAO lo! :D!! it was then when i receive a stupid message that almost spoil my day. i was suppose to have a date today but then was cancelled. quite disappointed cz it was postponed from thursday to friday, friday to saturday and it's cancelled. Zzzz? and that spoiled my mood of playing pool. i tried to not think about it so much though.

and at ard 3pm, we discussed and decided to have our lunch at 'Long John Silver' hahaha..there, my best friend and i were sharing our burden/stress/troubles. awww..it was there and then, my best friend and i decided to let's FORGET ABOUT ALL THOSE 'STUPID THINGS' and have some fun!!!!!!! WOO!

First, we went walking from bugis junction to suntec city haha! the first shop we went to is Braun Buffel! cz i just feel like spending! cz im stressed! plus, i nid a new wallet! :D so i bought wahahahaa! then, we went to Asiasoft Customer Service Center to settle some game account issue and i bought her a 10,000@cash prepaid card(S$10.70) as her promised birthday present! :D

Then, we went to 'Caesars'!!!! the Gun/Sword/armor shop!!!! nice!!!! hahaha. den we are bored..cz there isnt really anything interesting to entertain us. so we decided to visit the 'Fossil' shop - nothing much to see. den we walk walk walk...den we went to tower 3 i think..where Braun Buffel shop is. and we stopped by to watch a satisfying performance by some people..besides the venue of that performance was actually an area which exhibit the cultures of different ethic groups of people in singapore. haha! All this while, ive been receiving sms-es but i seriously, very disappointed and i dont want to spoil my day and quickly, i stuff my handphone back into my pocket! argh. carrying on..then..we decided to walk to the esplanade! :D on our way to esplanade.......we saw a damn f*cking beautiful man-made water feature!!! damn we were overwhelmed by it! ><>

hehe..then...we decided to cross over to marina from e millenia walk by the bridge and we saw a massage centre which also has e fish therapy! here's a picture of the fishes(:

AHH! we're so damn thirsty and guess wad? i guess it's e work of God (: on our way out of Marina Square, a guy from some drink stall came to ask us to try out their drinks! wooo! our thirst was quenched! :D haha!

Then...finally, we reached the Esplanade! it was so.....CROWDED with people! policemen and armies are around to control the traffic! and we went across the road..there's a hawker~ people are around having their food...haha and as we were walking in search for interesting stuff to entertain us..we found people singing on stage, crowded by lots of lots of people! and we stood there taking photos while enjoying the songs! here are the photos taken! :D

(Do take notice of the "paper boat" in the background (: )

hehe...den my dad called and i gtg home for my dinner.. how sad. then my best friend walked me to the picking-up area..and we saw the fireworks! wooo! how lucky and beautiful! haha!

Seriously, it's really a funfilled day for me. thnx my best friend! (:

i'm seriously very disappointed today cuz it was postponed from thursday > friday > saturday and then cancelled. i guess u might be seriously busy..idk..but one thing i don understand is that why are u always able to make it for ur fren's meeting........what i feel now is that i don't see any effort being put in...i do love u seriously but idk if u really do..all the things u did is making me confused and insecure....

a boring day.

2009-07-17T17:26:00.007+08:00

Wanted to go for shopping but, in the end, i didn't. lol. i was too lazy to even bathe after reaching home. zzz. shouldn't have wasted my time bathing in school after PE cuz i still sweat in the end cuz was playing 'catching' after that. LOL! oh yea, i remember giving my best friend a scare! i tell u! u shud have looked at how did she react back then! HAHA! her face was like...face of some blockheads! -no offense- and she chased after me outside the physics lab before physics lesson LOL! we were running so noisily until the stuff of the lab came out LOL! that's so embarassing HAHA!! xDxD

i seriously miss Michael Jackson.

You're like a drug; when you're with me, it's a high. When you're not, it's a low. And even though I know you'll hurt me in the end, I still need you. (:

(:

2009-07-16T11:10:00.003+08:00

Holding onto hopes, thinking that i could just buy an iPhone 3Gs by walking-in and i was wrong. ): just went to reserve/book one online. The customer service officer said that the exact date for the next batch of iPhone3Gs is unknown, even the marketing department doesn't know it. how sad can this be! but never mind! i shall just pray hard for it! (:

Was pretty distracted in class during lessons...kept thinking about iPhone and some other secrets(it's not wad u think). ha ha!

whenever i asked u something that gotta do with faithfulness out of curiosity, the aftermath is always getting insecurity. i know u really love me and i do too.

Hell!!!

2009-07-15T17:49:00.005+08:00

omg! the chinese oral examination is totally a disaster for me!! the passage was hell with so many alien chinese characters and i cant even answer the question confidently. zzz. luckily, my chinese teacher, who is a HOD for mandarin, told me that i need not worry as what i've said during the conversation is quite good. WAHAAHAA! but ouh..idk...was so sleepy in late morning due to inadequate amount of sleep i guess..

oh yes! im getting my iphone this coming saturday! im so so so so so....overjoyed? haha!

Just decided to play a joke with you, dear, but u reacted that way. i was just too bored lor..i'm sincerely sorry to you, dear...

hmmm..idk wad to type..lol i guess i'll just end here with some photos of my dog. Cya! (:

boring dae.

2009-07-10T23:19:00.000+08:00

ugh.. didn't do much today...that's boring. and i know, it's my first post. quite emo today and i can't figure out why. i guess i'm too lazy to continue typing on. :X

KELLY HERE!

2009-07-10T19:17:00.001+08:00

MUAHAHAH! I JUST INVADED GARY's BLOG! HAHa
i am the first! - by kelly lee.